Gabstah Options

[Headtrip]

No, he sounds like a fun guy. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/lalagrin.gif)
Are you in touch at all with any family?

[Gabstah]

Haha he's great :)

Yeah, I live with my older brother... my dad lives down the street (we see him on occasion.) My nan and granddad (dad's parents) live in Vancouver half the time so I see them when I can since they're sort of paying through my University. My dad's brother also lives here with his wife and I haven't had time to see them this semester since they're renovating but I usually see them three or four times a semester.

Then at home, I'm normally texting my little brother or we'll talk on msn a bit, my other older brother (the one that got back from Australia in December) and I talk using facebook sometimes. We're actually planning on going traveling together. Well... sort of. We both want to go to the same place at about the same time so we'll see if we can work that out together. And I try to call my mom twice or so a week!

Hahaha so yeah I'd say I'm in contact with them. I can't really cut anyone out (even if I wanted to, which I don't) since they've all helped me so much in getting and being here in University. The people that I see the least are probably my aunt and uncle (well, all of them - I see the ones on my mom's side when I'm home for the holidays and what not) and my dad. Even though we live like literally 4 minutes walking from each other I'm just super busy around here. The only time I really see people is on my holidays and on my holidays I go back home where my dad isn't.

[Headtrip]

When do you think is a good time to come out to your family? It's not an issue with me, as I plan to marry a woman, but Saffy says he's going to marry Kyle and everything so it's got to come up eventually.

[Gabstah]

Are you planning on marrying a woman because of your family, or because you can't see yourself marrying a man?

I guess whenever you're ready. My cousin came out when he was 17. Unfortunately we knew that he was doing it for attention, which is really sad :( Now he's with some girl, I don't know. Everyone in the family was really supportive, especially considering we're a pretty extreme catholic family. (One set of cousins is really REALLY Ukranion Catholic. They're kind of weird, we don't like to talk to them much.) My grandma is an old catholic lady and she was okay with it, love is love. Maybe everyone knew that he was faking it, though.

Of course you should only tell your family if you feel they have the right to know. Maybe you don't think that your personal life is their business, and keep it at that. Maybe you should come out to an adult you trust first - maybe a family friend or a teacher or something - and they can help you tell the news to the rest of your family. If for some god-awful reason they choose to reject you and cast you away, you need to make sure that you have somewhere you can go.

[Darth-Paper-Boy]

I think I'll end up asking this of everyone, but what's your answer to The Riddle?

[Gabstah]

42 with an astounding WHAT THE EFF.

[Headtrip]

I'd probably marry a woman for a lot of reasons, but the main reason is I always wanted a Catholic wedding. Does that sound strange?

[Gabstah]

Maybe a little bit. I had always wanted a Catholic wedding until my favorite priest died. He was the one that I had wanted to marry me since as long as I can remember. The priest we have now... I just don't like him. He was mean to Fraser once and I know I'm supposed to be a good Catholic and forgive him but I don't know if I can. Plus Catholics don't have outdoor weddings and I want a nice summer outdoor wedding.

I guess any reason is as good as another, as long as they're your own reasons and not doing it to please anybody else.

[Hasfusel]

Can you play any musical instruments, or sing? What kind of music do you like?

[Gabstah]

I played the piano for 12 years, the trombone for 3. I have a guitar but my hands are so small that I can't play it very well :(. I LOVE TO SING. I was better at it when I was younger unfortunately. I guess that's kind of how it goes. At home I'm almost always singing along to something. When I was a kid I'd make up songs and dances, make my family sit on the couch and I'd charge them a quarter for me to sing to them, hahaha.

I like... ah. I wouldn't say that there is a genre of music that I specifically like because I like so many artists that are intertwined, but I might not like music that is associated with the same genre. I guess I'll say indie. I used to be really into emo (in my emo days... ahaha. True emo! I promise. I was diagnosed with clinical depression in grade 10 and the music really complimented what I felt. I never dyed my hair black or dress scene, at least.)

I really like British Pop, I suppose? The Fratellis are incredible... I really liked the Killers (Yeah they're not brits but they sound like it) for a while... I go through stages. When ever anyone asks me what my favorite band is I always have two: My lifelong favorite (INCUBUS) and whoever is my favorite at the time. Right now it's Regina Spektor, before that it was Stars, before that it was The Fratellis. I listen to a bit of metal (my brother is hardcore into metal so I don't really have a choice) and when we're hanging out at home Fraser listens to hip-hop so I've got a few hip-hop artists that I don't mind listening to. (Actually we were listening to Lady Sovereign last night which always makes me want to dance.)

I actually don't listen to music that often. I LOVE music, but I sort of treat it... like it's special. When I'm home alone I won't always have music playing, I can work fine in silence. That way when I do listen to music it feels new and exciting. Some of the best moments I've had with Fraser is when we listen to a band that we used to love together in the car and there is just no where else I'd rather be than with him, in the car, listening to that album together. Pretty excellent feeling.

I can't stand techno though, which is another thing that Fraser likes. It just resonates badly in my head and it always gives me an awful headache and just makes me... angry. Fraser gets depressed when we listen to my emo so I don't listen to that around him.

Hahaha well that's my short story about music.

[Hasfusel]

You have clinical depression? A lot of people say that nowadays to appear cool, but it runs in my family quite deeply. I haven't suffered from depression for years, but my grandmother is currently very ill with it again. It's very hard for me, because there's simply nothing I can do. She sits in front of the fire all day, whimpering. It also makes me worried because my father often gets depressed as well.

I love the piano, and I love singing. I've been teaching myself since I was seven and for the past two years I've had regular piano/singing lessons. I'm fortunate to have an excellent teacher. I'm particularly good at playing by ear; I can pick most songs up after one hearing in a matter of minutes.

What are your favourite piano pieces? I love playing Comptine D'Une Autre Ete by Yann Tiersenn (check the Ranchstory music, it's in the Instrumentals part) and The Heart Asks Pleasure First by Michael Nyman (look it up; it's beautiful).

[Gabstah]

I hate how clinical depression is a fad. My dad and both of his parents have it, and it's affected our family so harshly. I was diagnosed in grade 9 ((thought it was grade 10 but that was wrong, sorry)) when I stopped eating, stopped hanging out with my friends, stopped going to dance... all I did was sleep. I went to a councilor three times a week for a year, then I dropped down to only once a week for three more years. I had a relapse last year with major anxiety attacks, but I'm back on track. I was medicated for those four years and it actually wasn't until I stopped drinking that I found I was feeling better. I've been off the meds for... wow, it's actually getting close to a year. Crazy how time flies.

It's hard to describe depression to someone who doesn't have it. I hated seeing the people who cut for attention, it made me want to simultaneously vomit and punch them in the face. I admit I had a few weak moments where I self-harmed... the only person that knew was my councilor, my best friend... and then later I told my mom and Fraser. I was so ashamed of myself that every time I see someone showing off a scar or a scab I know that they're not feeling the same things that I was.

My brother had depression and unfortunately is falling down the same path as my dad. When I was diagnosed I went to the doctor regularily, attempted to stop drinking (and completely stopped drugs), tried to get more exercise and eat better, my brother decides that he needs to sit on the computer all day. He takes his medication when he feels like it, and just informed us that he didn't go to a single one of his exams and has flunked out of his 5th year of University. It fills me with so much emotion... such mixed emotion... to know that he could be doing what I did when I found out and be functioning normally in society but instead drinks himself to a stupor. My dad is an alcoholic and only would take his medication when he needed help sleeping, claimed that all psychiatrists were full of bullshit... etc. I know that lots of kids had troubles growing up with their parents but to see the emotional effect my dad had on my mom as well as the rest of the family was just sickening. They've finally divorced and my mom is still suffering from the 25 years of "marriage" that they shared. My dad is doing a bit better but I can't help but be a bit resentful.

Actually, funny story... in grade 9 when I was first diagnosed, all of my "best friends" decided that I wasn't fun enough to hang around, I wasn't popular enough to be around, I didn't want to experiment with drugs and whatever they wanted to do, so they stopped hanging out with me. I was such a lost puppy. All I did was cry and follow my mom whereever she went. Honestly. I was this weeping grade 9 girl, who sat on her lap and refused to shower unless it was with the door open and I could hear her outside. When she went into the bathroom I waited outside the door for her to come back.

Oh wow this thinking is making me kind of sad, hahaha. I haven't thought about it in a long time, it's not good to reminisce. I wasn't the angsty angry at my parents kind of depressed... I was the "mom sometimes I think about killing myself" kind of depressed. I used to toy with the idea of OD'ing... taking a handful of motrin or tylonel whenever I had a headache. All it did was up my immunity to it of course, now when I have a headache taking two pills does nothing for me but I'm too scared to take more for fear of my liver.

That's actually one reason why I smoke a lot of pot, now. Okay, not a LOT. Probably more than most people on here but that's mostly an age thing, as well as a location (I live in BC in Canada, haha, it's what we do!) I get really anxious sometimes and I get into these mindsets where I can't think, I can't breathe, I can't focus. When I smoke it helps me relax and think about the present instead of the past. I only do it MAYBE once or twice a month (and less now since we're broke) but it's just a nice, fun feeling.

It's funny telling people this story because they see me as this exuberant life-loving girl who just wants to have fun. I've worked hard to get this image, I tell you what, and lately I've actually begun to feel it. I do love life... most of the time. Alright, enough about that. Music!!

My favorite composer of all time is Bartok. Dissonance is so beautiful when done correctly. I can't even remember any of the songs I used to play by him but it was always at least once a year. Haydn is a good guy too, one of the most fun pieces I had was done by him. Unfortunately all I can remember was that it was a Sonata, which means little when you write so many of them. My favorite "new" piano player is Regina Spektor, as I mentioned in my favorite bands section. She has such a lively voice with such beautiful piano playing. I can't even pick my favorite song by her...

this isn't the offical music video for music box:


this is the offical one for fidelity:

[Darth-Paper-Boy]

Something lighter now, if you could replace one hand with anything what would it be?

[Gabstah]

A never ending bottle of booze. Bacardi Breezer pineapple flavourrrr. YUM.

Or a cross bow. I'd love to crossbow a few people across the FACE.

[Hasfusel]

Is it true that cannabis is also very addictive when used in cooking? My big sister said that you can make these things called hash cakes with it, and that her friend ate two whole ones in one go because the cannabis made it so moreish. Apparently she then saw the Devil and he tried to rip her heart out by her kneecaps.
I don't approve of my sister's smoking, but she doesn't make it a habit and she says she'll stop when she leaves university, so I leave her alone about it. I'll never try it myself, though. Lots of people do get addicted, and even if you don't take it often it has very negative effects on your mental health when you're older, particularly if an illness like depression runs in the family. It has long-term damaging effects on the brain, which is pretty scary. But I don't have any stupid friends who are likely to try either, so there won't be any peer pressure or anything. Not that I ever fall for that anyway.

[Headtrip]

Go easy on Hassy. I sort of understand where he's coming from. I had a lot of friends a while back who definelty made it a habit. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/lalatounge.gif)
Are your sig and avatar supposed to look graffiti-style?

[Gabstah]

No, I understand the concern and I admit that it's not the most healthy of practices: it also isn't as bad as a lot of people make it out to be. I completely quit smoking when I was on my antidepressants which helped me SO much. For us (me and Fraser) smoking has never been out of habit, it's always been a treat. We don't just smoke because, well, it's what we do... we'll make a decision together on whether or not we should buy some and when we should smoke it. We just make a night of it, like some people might make a night out of drinking. (Oh wait, we do those nights too. Ahaha.) I have some friends who smoke like, every day, and that's sad. I don't want to be like that and I won't be like that.
And actually a few studies have come out saying that smoking a little bit can actually help cure cancer, as the THC targets the cancer cells and kills them before they can get out of control. If you'd like to see actual evidence and not just my tiny run down I can try to find the article again!
Aaaand to answer your question: pot in food. I've actually only had cookies, but apparently it takes a little longer to settle in your body but when it does it's normally a whole body stone. The fact that they hallucinated makes me wonder what was laced in the pot as it's not a hallucinogenic drug. Apparently special brownies are awesome and you can't stop eating them. It's way healthier for you as well since you're not smoking the paper or anything so it's not getting into your lungs.


I'm always easy on people! Whenever anyone has a valid concern, I take it into consideration. If someone is making a point about my well-being I appreciate it.

Haha doesn't it look like graffiti? Fraser LOVES graffiti, he made it for me. Well, he made it and then resized it so I could use it as my sig and av here. That's kind of what he does. frazbot.deviantat.com

[Hasfusel]

There wasn't anything else added in as far as I know; she just ate the equivalent of smoking about fifteen strong joints in the space of several seconds. And then ate another. No wonder the Devil appeared.

It's good to hear you're being careful with your health, at least. So many people just think, "Screw it all, I'll smoke this stuff all the time." And then they start taking other stuff, too. That's the risk. Some research my mother did for her job showed that a large percent of cannabis smokers began with pot and then moved on to stronger things. And their health went down like a hot cannonball through a vat of butter.
I must admit I have a slightly biased view on the stuff, because the first guy I met who openly smoked it was a complete freak show, among other things. I wonder how many drugs he had taken when he made this.

By the way, did Fraser see anything interesting while in New York? Were there any apocalyptic monsters? There's always apocalyptic monsters. And cops. And those bright yellow taxi cabs. And those doughnuts. Oh, the list could go on forever.

[Gabstah]

Haha that video was so bizarre. I had to turn it off like a minute into it, it wasn't resonating nicely in my mind.

Definitely the taxi cabs. The coolest thing (in my opinion) that he saw was conan o'brien live. He also went to Coney island (creepy as heck!) and to the huge kid robot store. He's obsessed with vinyl toys so it was basically a dream come true for him. My favorite part was when he came back home, man I missed that kid.

[Headtrip]

Do you like surrealist art? It's my favourite genre of art, and pretty trippy and surreal. I even have The Persistence of Memory on my bedroom wall.
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